how would you truly expect me to answer such a question?
yes, of course i'm sure. everything is fine. as usual.
i live states away from my family and friends.
my mother calls me frequently, and always asks the same questions.
"are you ok?"
i always respond the same; "yes, of course."
it annoys the shit out of me, because i don't want to discuss how i'm doing.
it would just make me feel worse.
so yeah. denial please. thank you.
but, in reality
there are many days i drown myself in alcohol and question blowing my head off.
but why would i want to worry my family?
her asking me how i'm doing is useless, whether it be a gesture of kindness,
content for smalltalk or a genuine heartfelt question.
yes, of course i'm sure. everything is fine. as usual.
i live states away from my family and friends.
my mother calls me frequently, and always asks the same questions.
"are you ok?"
i always respond the same; "yes, of course."
it annoys the shit out of me, because i don't want to discuss how i'm doing.
it would just make me feel worse.
so yeah. denial please. thank you.
but, in reality
there are many days i drown myself in alcohol and question blowing my head off.
but why would i want to worry my family?
her asking me how i'm doing is useless, whether it be a gesture of kindness,
content for smalltalk or a genuine heartfelt question.
until next time.
